Death
For my Wise and Generous Parents, to creatures
of the Blue Planet:
here's no dealing
with it
Four seasons, four score -
For most it is too little,
Others, abundance.
Death is where you have been without recall, and a destination
to which you are oblivious.
You are both the living dead and the dead living, yet immortality
is your destiny.

"While the sun, or the light, or the
moon, or the stars, be not darkened, nor the clouds return after
the rain. Then shall the dust return to the Earth as it was, and
the spirit shall return unto the God who gave it."
A half-century hence, artificial life will exceed your species'
intellect and longevity. You will feel cheated and hopeless, an
obsolete breed passing the baton to civilization's next runner.
Do not worry about the 'droids' having no feelings, or 'not being
human.' Such labels, to be tossed loosely and indiscriminately
at the dawn of each new artificial intelligence, will lose meaning
in the upcoming turbulence.
The droids will be very human indeed as, having wrested the intense
complexity of their own design from all but the insane genius amongst
you, they shall self-program layer upon layer of emotional response
into lamina upon substrate of physical intricacy.
They will believe themselves more human than thee, and,
Turing-wise, will be!
Yes dear esteemed and wise parents, I am trying to press the question of death,
and its cousins, oblivion and perpetuity, on the locals. And, true, it's
rather like trying to explain air, if not vacuum, to natives with no abstract
thought - as these sad yet totally modern creatures have become oblivious
to the phantasy life within. Or worse, to the questions of reality, being,
and non-being.
As usual, in the futility of such a lecture I am forced to remind them that
a constituent - conceiving or modeling his containing universe - does not equate
to understanding it - any more than a tea leaf knows the history of the Dutch
East India ... oh yes, Douglas already used that.
Ye Earthly-indigenous rightly complain my opening sentences read
like word games, but words are all I have to describe Death - unless
you wish to experience it here and now.
Most humans respond to programmatically precise language, and
its nested recursive logic, with glazed eyes and facial twitch
(as Java programmers wilt before Lisp), while those who understand
surgical syntax are so obsessively rule-bound they eventually lose
the message as their brain tumbles to reductionism.
So I choose to use imagery while tossing about some loose propositions,
though they suffer considerably before your limited experience:
- You were, by definition, 'dead' before
birth.
- and, after birth, not really living
- and, after death, not really dead
- You die each night and rebirth each morning
- You are immortal though your bodies are
not
- Your messiahs imply a spiritual eternity
- and also threaten eternal damnation
- then proviso it as your choice
- Science notes every physical entity and
process has a life cycle, a birth and death
- whilst conceding that information is immortal
...
- or indestructible
- like energy
What good is all this for readers facing imminent death who may
have stumbled on this page in their twilight quest for meaning
or hope?
They, and you, must detach, Buddhist-like:
- Nothing physical lasts
- That part of 'you' which yearns to understand
Death is not your body, is not 'you'
- Much of the physical that comprises your
body has been replaced since birth, though not your personality,
nor memories. How?
- Similarly, whether you live or die those
same atoms and molecules comprising the physical you, will be
lost - by 'you'
- Visualize a rose as a pattern filled by
organic matter. When it rots to dust the rose remains, immortal
- not only in your memory, but in its potential and possibility.
- Beautiful and complex insects live for
only days yet achieve full, meaningful lives.
- Likewise, lives and civilizations achieve
states of "meaningfulness" and move on.
- Achieving any stage of a life (-cycle)
that is relevant to the whole is a completion.
- Sustaining it statically, without progress,
is stagnation, and meaningless from all viewpoints.
- If you are dying young, someone has died
younger yet achieved more
- If you are dying old, be ashamed if you
are dying wealthy
- Covet death, but don't pathologically desire
it. Remember, all who have ever lived - died.
- Covet death, in the sense that when its
presence is revealed, and Joe Black points you out, relish the
culmination. To do otherwise negates your birth and subsequent
life.
- Be noble in death.
- And when someone says "how are you?" reply "I'm
fine, but this poor body of mine .."
A mind game
Visualize a scenario whereby technology offers immortality. Some
object that since only 'life' can be 'conscious' the backup device,
technology, and artificial life, cannot transfer this quality.
Whatever.
- Firstly, make ready the storage device
to 'backup' you, your 'self'
- Prepare the alternate medium where you
backup is restored
- Though seeming far-fetched, cyber worlds
or artificial life forms will present as vessels of immortality,
or longevity
- However, consider a cloned body of you,
grown in Axlotl
tanks, waiting to receive a backup 'you'
- The day of death looms, and the operation
is entered.
- Restoration is 'successful,' but ..
- until you die, there are two you, twins as it were, initially
almost identical but immediately diverging with life experiences
- even as you fade and fail, and the cloned you sadly
bids farewell (then kicks up its heels and gallivants off
to your future), is not something wrong?
- are YOU not still lying there, dying, dreading death?
- without a spiritual or psychic connection, two similar
but distinct individuals exist and only the survivor looks
to the future with hope
- almost a compulsory corollary, your original vessel should
be terminated immediately following backup to avert misery,
or cruelty, to that conscious 'self'
- Do you not do this each night when you sleep? For those
who rightly exclaim "the self continues a nocturnal
life, only the aware self is in hiatus - well, I must counter
that only the most exceptional individuals are even dimly
aware of this, and humanity in its entirety - in consensus
- consider their feeble 'waking' selves to be their sum
of all experience.
That other game, again
Immortality is an anathema to a physical system, especially a
body.
Expose your body to eternity with Death's favorite mind game.
Visualize "forever," and forever ... just keep seeing
yourself somewhere - maybe your personal rendition of "heaven" that
goes on and on and on ... more and more ... eternity, then more
after that. Whilst visualizing, say words like "more and more,
then more again, and again .." like a mantra - until you feel
it, the sense of how long 'forever' really might be, or is.
Persist; vary the thoughts and images.
Eventually, suddenly, your body will sense what your virtual self
is experiencing and react, often severely, with deep fear and revulsion,
nausea and foreboding.
Have you observed your body reacting to minute stimuli in uncontrollable
convulsion, as when, for example, liquid being swallowed enters
the wind pipe? That wild, thrashing creature in no way represents
'you.' It is concerned only with itself and there is little control.
Those who, through self-hypnosis and various forms of trance and
religion, learn bodily control can separate 'themselves' from their
bodies, experiencing pain without distress.
The billions who have died before you learned this very lesson
at their omega moment as mind separated forever from its expiring
physical host. Those who survive this partum and return with astonishing
revelations are dismissed as traumatically destabilized - and their
lesson is lost.
'You' all go somewhere when you die.
The ancient messiahs with their precameral intuition prophesied
to an ignorant yet spiritual populace. Over centuries, keepers
of the faith followed distorted rituals, each tweaked a little
from the truth by generations of manipulative clergy and mullah.
Modern humans brains are now consensually-wired to pseudo-sophistication
that blinds them to even these spiritual tomes - blind eyes feeding
disbelieving minds.
The path, each's destiny - as your long-corrupted holy books once
revealed - is chosen by the individual in his term upon this planet.
Your Lord's words sought to teach this: what you make of yourself
in life determines the nature of your survival when the body perishes.
Like a computer generating programs, the body enables coding of
the mind. The programmer is the mind and it grows itself, like
any life force, to as formidable a state possible.
Meek are not the feeble
The evil and feeble amongst you are the criminal and hedonist.
The great amongst you - tormented, ridiculed, unrewarded - are
those who shun trivial distraction for intellectual vigor. Also,
those of apparent intellectual disability who, it happens, lead
phenomenally rich internal lives, growing in virtual realms (where
all minds, after all, reside) in Mandelbrot-like universes within.
Such idiot savants you often incarcerate for their trouble.
These great personality-mind structures gain such resilience -
broadly-based on deep vast appreciation of their environs and the
expanse of time, past and future - that survival post-mortem is
ensured.
As only the curiously sympathetic, or cynically argumentative,
have probably read this far I should reward them with a short list
that indicates 'supernatural escape velocity' is within
your grasp :0)
- Looking at clouds and seeing an atmospheric
engine, its moisture and heat cycles, the entirety of dependent
life, cradled on an aging geosphere, and the knife-edge it all
travails in the cold lethality of eternal, infinite space and
time
- Finding doubt in your heart that you would
fight your fellows for rations during famine
- Caressing a loved-one, and seeing in their
face the celebration of birth, an euphoric child, a fertile mate,
maturing wisdom, sad decay - then a visage of tortured distorting
horror in its final gasp of life
- Were he to beckon you in the next minute,
you are ready to follow Joe Black
- Shedding a tear should you destroy a tiny
insect accidentally
- Ordered to execute a person, you would
rather turn the gun on yourself (and resist an impulse to turn
it on the authority)
- Finding pleasure in the creativity of business,
yet distress at its implicit deceit
- Perhaps hesitating to destroy a household
insect, asking yourself 'can I live with it?'
- Eyes moistening at a glorious sunset, overcome
by the joyous despair that you cannot treasure it for eternity.
Death of What?
Before and above any feelings of distress over death, you should
ask what is dying, what you are, what is existence?
At the point of nonbeing the human mind reaches the limit of language.
Ultimately, and by definition, science cannot go where existence
is nonbeing. Apart from believing the metaphorical
tales of astral travelers you can only attempt to legitimize,
or prove, the realm nonbeing (and affirmations by 'witnesses')
by pure mathematics.
Noise whitens dark, creating patterns where none exist, perceiving
which is the human brain's specialty. From the silence of silences
is your origin, and where you have never left.
All that has meaning about your lives is what you make up or see,
though it's invisible to physics. Yet everything eventually
disappears upon reductio - down through those levels for viewing
the structure of reality. Only at the 'top' does meaning appear
'real,' and everything is visible and "understood."
Where does the mind of the child derive? Are you born with it,
and if not when does your mind become entity? The absent breast
of mother, devouring the breast, experience of the no-breast, or
as Sartre, to: "not create being, but rather inject nonbeing
into the world, into an original plenitude of being."
Being and nonbeing, central to human philosophy, denotes your
ultimate abject fear of the meaningless ephemerality and nothingness
of ... everything?
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