Greymatter Reengaged
Posted in Me on Apr 7th, 2008
Great novelists are usually great social thinkers, by which I hint this might not be a particularly great novel.
Inspired by Gore Vidal’s Messiah in imitation and awe.
As student artists replicate the masters, in I wade. It’s no more than that, comparisons should end before they start.
The storyline?
Simply what if a twenty-first century prophet .. ? Not of course Vidal’s storyline, though this was written whilst reading his.
His Messiah sat lonely, moldering in the bookcase for thirty years after bought second hand for a dollar. Dusting it off in my 59th year, it made me rather gasp.
You see, I had known of Vidal since student days.. With social and political interest I quickly stumbled across him, intuitively categorizing him as a keepsake for further study. If an object has foundations, rooms, walls, roof - it must be a ‘building.’ Cursorily, then, Vidal was for three decades in my vague awareness of him, an independent, original, like-minded, thinker - and America’s articulate social conscience.
Vidal’s fame as author a given, still Messiah’s originality of phrase and tenor of words delighted and amazed. Further, a layer of wisdom - lessons realized by even the most thoughtful often only when facing the grave - laced and graced this tale written, I imagined, at a relatively tender age.
There he had sat in my mind, proxy for that territory demanding intellectuality of me, and now, here, were words written by this legend at its most creative - a time during which I was off doing I know not what in my would-have-been prime years.
Tragically-wasted years.
Credentials as novelist? None, other than a pleasing series of compositions marked well by an aged English master who, it seemed, accepted the seed of his once fine ambition now lost to the barbarity of teaching high school miscreants.
Two years of cadet reporting introduced this mere feeble intellect to the real world of real men. Rapidly succumbing (aghast) to the discovery that journalists were egomaniacs - or at least people with fluid social skills, for me totally lacking - and having not discovered the whereabouts of my ego, I fled, terrified.
And now, forty years later, I want to write.
Like any wannabe author, the first focus is impossible to discern till it leaps from the matrix and clasps scruff, or scrotum .. as did, and hence, Messiah.
And, like growing a beard, every thinking lad should attempt at least one grand effort in literature, placating if little else the guilt for an otherwise pathetic life. Thinking lasses should send the equivalent to the editor, as he can’t see right now what females aught grow.
If messiahs still tend to overwhelm, some mild disrespect might place you at ease.
The Python crew set in concrete the quip "Of course he’s the Messiah. I ought to know, I’ve followed a few."
Which effectively ordains us (or just Californians?) to stand down, get a grip, some perspective, and even a life.
